can anyone tell me wat is the exact definition of life ??
well somehow the kind of life i'm having now jus simply sucks and fucked up ... sry for the vulgarities used..been tolerating with a very idiotic lifestyle and family since 9th September 2002 till now ... and its getting worst as days months years past instead of getting better ..... been going on for 3 years plus ... wat the hack ...
i should have went in army first instead of studying first if i knew tht life will get worst staying in the damn home of my elder brother's
if i go army first at least i only come home sleep for one or two nights ... and after i finish my NS i don have to stay in his home. now i have to keep on tolerating and suffer in his home and facing his unreasonable stuff. i even screwed up my first year in SP Diploma in Architecture .. year end project submission on the 6th feb and yet i have tonnes of work not submitted and done ... i have not been in a working mood and cant even concentrate at home jus spoils everything and i starting to realise tht i'm sinking into depression more and more
and yes my lecturer got me right on spot ... i'm holding on to something which i jus simply cant let out ... thus no one is able to help me in any sense .....
quitting or transferring of course have crossed my mind once or even numerous times however, i have yet to know wat i really want to do... should i simply go get a pyschatrist for treatment or something ?
well i have blabbered enough of my misery ... otherwise its jus too taxing for readers and i do not want ppl to think tht i'm seeking for sympthy or wanting attention and pppl to pity me ...
last but not least i don have any CNY mood and i have not bought any single piece of new clothes ... thinkning of going for a change of my hair colour but have to rethink once again ... wat kind of year is this ? is this how i'm going to live through my adolescent years and from 20 to 21years old which is this november ?
