how shall i start ??.... its been a rather harsh week for me over the recent weeks ..
it started when we were getting further apart ... though i love her alot ...
it had came to a halt, unfortunately it was neither a dream nor a joke .. it was true tht she and i have parted . although i agreed to it , i still love her in my heart and accept the fact tht i have to live with it ...
everytime when i fell sick i will defininately lose something ... i ddint knew i would lose her, maybe its because i have neglected her. Perhaps i was too busy with band and my sch's ccas, this week was really a harsh week .. as i fell sick yesterday with stomach upset, though i actually managed to bear with it and forced myself till evening after a drums ensemble practice , where i cant bear it anymore i went straight home to rest..which means i'm unable to attend yesterday's band practice in the night which was supposed to be preparations for the upcoming concert....
as usual i msg her in the night, but i felt certain sense of weirdness ... jus as i expected, the unpleasant news came today in the morning, this was becos few days back she asked what will i do if she break up with me ... i was stunned upon receiving tht msg...
i'm confused and mind in a mix ... all i can do after tht was keep on munching on snacks and tibits ... for whole afternoon i was simply eating and eating and eating even though i have not recovered from stomach and throat upset. And i was forcing myself finishing my assignment on the computer.... my friends asked me what happen as i looks as if i'm dying and not being myself today ...
i know myself as someone who is not good with words and at communicating with gf ... as i often gets too involved with my ineterest-(music) as i'm been busy with band lately, four days a week thus practically tht leaves me with minimum time to catch up and understand her .. i'm at fault and i'm hurt but i wont blame her.
i wish this was a dream and not a fact but tht seems unlkely for now ... it has happened
luv u dear..... = O"
EeyOre
22:18
a wonderful day;
